A lot happened in a very short time. Tyson was offered a new job in Arizona (note: he accepted), we moved out of our townhouse, my tummy continues to grow and grow, we are house hunting, living between states, and – to be short – trying to keep up with new routines.
I’ll be honest, for a moment I felt my life, not turning upside down, but wobbly – unsteady.
We were content. Like a well-oiled machine, we hummed through our daily groove without a care or worry that things might change, because things were already changing: we were happily readying ourselves for parenthood, after all..
But Life smirked, wagged a finger at our complacency, and stopped our well-oiled machine with a very loud snap.
And I?
I panicked.
This was not the time to move out of our townhouse! This was not the time to switch jobs! This, most definitely, was not the time to leave our family and friends and move to another state! THIS. WAS. NOT. THE. TIME.
Still. Here we are.
Now that I’ve gained some control over my panicked state, I’ve started to see more clearly.
No, the timing might not be great. But sometimes the worst time? Ends out being the best time. During this craziness, I’ve grown closer to my husband. We’ve leaned on each other for emotional support. We’ve learned to laugh at hard times, or, at the very least, enjoy small moments of sanity.
I’ve fallen more in love with his goodness, his patience, and his determination to push our little family forward. I am grateful to have my best friend at my side, walking with me through the unknown.
And I suppose that is what Life always is: unknown.
Change is constant, they say. We cannot stop Life from happening, good and bad. We cannot pause time or rewind it or dictate it. All we can do is move forward, which is always better than going nowhere.