Well. It happened.
Today, whilst shopping for some yummy fruits at Sprouts, I was asked what it was like to be old and expecting.
“I’m…31…” I replied numbly.
The lady just smiled, as though she proved a point.
I was so baffled, I hardly knew what else to say. I raised the small carton of blueberries in my hand, mumbled a “yum”, and threw them into my cart…annnnd walked away without answering her question.
Okay, so I went to the store without makeup. But. WHO asks another woman that question? EVER? I’ve spent half of the afternoon looking at my reflection in the mirror, wondering if my crinkles are really wrinkles.
I know I’m not a spring chicken, but golly – I’m not 90 and shopping for a coffin. Not to mention, I have several friends who didn’t have children until their late thirties/early forties, and I’ve never thought, Oh gee, I wonder if I should ask them what it’s like to be old and expecting, because the thought of age never really crossed my mind – I was just happy they were happy.
I’m not dumb. I live in Utah, where a majority of women start families in their early twenties. That is how the culture rolls around here.
And yeah, I’ll be honest, 31 was not my ideal. But Life.
I’m simply grateful for this opportunity.
Listen, we’re playing the game of Life, but we’re all on different paths. All of us. No one’s journey is remotely the same. Some journeys are easy-peasy and fly by with only a minor bump or two. Some have a few more turns and stops. And other people hit every damn road block imaginable.
But we all learn. We all grow. We all become who we become because of Life.
My journey has taken me to this point, and I’m okay with it. I’m happy.
Maybe a little more wrinkly than I thought.
But happy.